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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
2:53 pm	Gonzales Hello! I havent updated this in a million years...Or at least a lesser period of time. Anyway. Nothing big, but Im going to post a thingy a friend showed me. Plus those on MySpace can find me there. email is Engel565@yahoo.com to find me. I have a blod posted as well. Thanks, enjoy. Or please try pretending. ;) Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See liquidhotels's results. ) Current Mood: Spidermonkey Current Music: Robots in Disguise - Girl (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
6:55 am	I woke up this morning to a most amazing msg by my sister. And it goes.... " hey poopy. i heard about bacon. i like that name. all is well for me and the porn store. i had some girl show me her ass today though. not that unusual. ohwell. catch ya on the flip side! " Oh family. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
8:17 am	Finally! I found the new Beck CD Ltd Ed. I like it. Its growing more and more on me. I also obtained the new Garbage CD last night, as well :) Its ok. I will have to listen to it more. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
7:47 pm	I was reminded of a fantastic thing just now about the whole gay acceptance thing. Seems to me the people who really should have issues with it are the ones that it is with. Instead of what everyone thinks that its a disease, curse, misguidedness, or even horrible food poisoning. And I see them protest until they get cold or tired and go home and beat their wives and rape their kids, mapping out their entire life for them. Beacuse one person is incapable of doing such a thing :) Well, President for example. Its like they picked names out of a hat or something. Anyway, I think this should be a new Gay acceptance avert. Maybe even a whole new way of life. It will start out with a television show. There will eb a straight guy ( the homophobe or not) and then there will be the gay (The queenie sexed up bottom whore or perhaps stipper/hooker, etc) They will stand ext to each other and the host will say..."Please cast your ovtes in on who is straight and who is gay" adn they will have time to do so. They pick correctly, naurally. As the sterotypes are obvious and obnoxious. THEN!!.... They take them both in back. Completely remove all of their skin, brains, nails and hair. So there is now two horribly dismembered corpses. Organs off to the side. NOW!! Who do you think is gay and who is straight? What?? They look the same?! How odd! I think maybe durring the skinning the demons of the gay must have been released or something because now no one can tell one fom the other. People are fantastic regardless. I reejcted the TV durring the Pope's "Death week". Im not suer, is it over yet? We still have a president in out own country being horrible and ruining everything, people are killing everyone else, and teh 17 year old boy jacked on crack breaking in and raping the 90 year old woman. I mean, do you think he even really asked if she was interesetd? She prolly would have said yes. But I guess we choose to do the extreme case of the two. I looked for a CD today. The new Beck album to be exact. The special edition. Which came packaged as a book. A thin book, but still a book. Pages and everything with hardcover. I go in to best buy. I didnt see it when I saw it just days before. So I go to ask one of the many friendly, well informed clerks to help me find it. He first doesnt know who Beck is. I let it slide, but I didnt see how anyone not know who Beck is. He then asked what it looked like. I said it is the special edition and was packed in a book. So it looks like a book. He couldnt find it and then picked up a cubed box set. An actualy cube, square. He says "Like this?" I first dont know how to respond, wanting to say "Well, thats not really a book now is it? Lets practice and we acn try our shapes tomorrow. Thank you yong man" But I didnt, instead I just said...No, NOT like that at all. He then says...Hmm....Dont know what to tell ya. Im thinking "How about 'Doesnt look like we have it in stock' or ' let me look that up for you'". I left that store annoyed and Beck-less. But oh well. I will find it somewhere else...tomorrow :) I think Im going to dinner with Merk tonight. However I thought it was going to be sooner, but its cool. Hes been dressing up K. Fun for all! And I get a time to update. ;) And now Im off. P.S... I'm sleepy... Current Mood: Trixy Trikst'r Current Music: Muse - Hyper Chondriac Music (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
10:28 pm	penis muzzle So, I have done much thinking this weekend. And I think I have come up with the new kitty's name. I believe I shall name him "Bacon". Really, for no reason at all. I didnt even have any this weekend. So I can maybe honestly say it was an authentic message from Jesus Christ. I think maybe its ok. Yes, it will be. BTW...DiD ANYONE WATCH THIS WEEKS ASHLEE SIMPSON?!?! Current Mood: Ashlee Simpson Current Music: Ashlee Simpson (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
10:28 pm	Mark made pancakes last weekend. And I ate two. Thank you (4 Comments |Comment on this)
8:00 pm	Today was absolute madness. It was very slow in the early bits of the day. At work that is. Its been kinda horrible the last couple days because no one is making appointments. Im glad that they dont encourage leaving early. Because I would be poor. :( Moreso than usual. But its been ok lately. work flow wise. So today was boring. Then about 10 minutes before I was schedueld to leave, a cat comes in. This cat was ferral. Meaning it was a wild cat. No part of it is domestic and should not be kept as a pet. But this lady sais she has one and its addopted her ( meaning she gives it LOTS of food, way more than it really should have ) and now its limping. So I told her she needed to bring it in. This was two days ago. She comes in two days later. She came in with JUST the cat. No carrier. She was carrying a wild homeless cat in her arms into a vet clinic with other animals, including dogs. Naturally the cat freaked out and flew away. It somehow got outside and everyone was chasing it. Even receptionists. One of them thought it would be a good idea to grab for it. I really like this receptionist but I mean its a ferral cat. NOT a good idea in ANY situation. Naturally, she was bitten. But three times. Cat bites are the worst because they harbor the most bacteria in all animals all within their mouth. Those that dont have appropriate dental care, that is ;) She was rushed to the hospital because she was bleeding everywhere. So we were then DOWN a receptionist. We were also down a receptionist earlie theis week as she got into a car accident and was hurt a great deal. So she couldnt come in and work. Thats a big deal because today one of the technicians had to go and be a receptionst for some time until it all got under control up there. And it was VERY busy all of a sudden. So we were down to one tech assisting two Dr.s But luckily one was schedueled off at that time. So I was only having to see after one. Which was ok while the other tech was in back with that cat on HEAVY anesthesia. It had a fight wound I think, there was a hole in its leg when I looked at it so Im assuming. It got under control and I ended up going home. All in all I felt it to be an accomplished day :) So, I also got a new creature. Its a *cAtZ!!* His name is Ronnie. But I already have a friend with that name, similar spelling I suppose. Close enough. Does anyone have any fantasmo ideas as of new names? I am still nervous for my review. It is due up shortly. I hope I do ok. I hate reviews. SOOO much! But I guess time will tell and all that. Let's see ;) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
9:32 am	Well, I am so excited about finally have money again. It is a distant friend. I will pay bills, pay back Monkey and take him to a delicious food thing with possible drinks ;), and buy foods. My review is due up the start of next month. I gave myself a threat / challenge. Once all things are taken care of, of course. If my review goes well I will get a car possibly within a month from that time. At least be more aggressive about it. Lots more. I dislike not being able to see my friends because of something stupid like transportation. And Busses dont count as they dont run when I need them to. So there you go. The ONLY solution....well, the only one I find acceptable. Not much else has been going on. Hanging out with Mark, playing games, seeing friends...some of them, the usual things. Like work....yes. Andrew Bird is coming to town on April 9th. I am very excited about this. And Kristyn and Monkey are hopefully still going. I dont have much else to say I guess. I will post more when it comes to me. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
8:31 pm	Today was most unusual. A good day though. Til the end. At work the Dr. called me Riley in front of everyone. This wouldnt be the first time. In fact the last time he did that was at a home Euthenasia and I didnt bring it up because I felt it would be innapropriate. I pictured myself in a seinfeld episode. I could almost HEAR the song as it fades from that moment to me in a coffee shop describing it in detail and confusion. But someone did catch on at work today. They wanted to know who Riley was. He pointed to me and laughed at him. Im glad I wasnt the one to make him feel an ass. hehe So all day everyone called me Riley. Which wasnt too bad. Its kind of a fun name. A lil bit anyway. Then this girl informs me that she has known this guy and everytime they go to "hang out" he thinks her name is Sam. But its Alice. I then asked how long shes known him. She then tells me 8 years. I was *amazed* a bit and greatly entertained. I thought if I really could live on with an alternate identity. I then came to conclude, no. I could not. Something would go horribly wrong and I would be found out. Then eventually killed. its only logic at work ;) Anyway, that was all day at work. Then I get to work with this other new person. She appears to hate the job. Shes never worked in an animal hospital before, yet she is offical in the ways of schooling and animal care. This Dr that thinks my name is Riley wasnt bein the warmest to her today. he was stressed and had lots going on and he wasnt attacking her but she decided to take it as a personal attack. She kept complaining to me as to how much of a bitch he was being. I just replied with "Im off soon". Which didnt make her any happier Im sure. But was ok by me :) I then leave work to go home after a full busy day. I get home and I see my apartment in shambles as result of a comic book explosion that I have been sorting through for the past week or so. I started to think of what I was to do now. And I came to a blank. So I went online. And became bored. Made some food and became more bored. I started to realized how long its been since I actually went out to interact with people. Really, the only gay community I see anymore is the likes of gay.com. And thats a horrible impression to leave on anyone. No wonder people want to kill us. They probablly accidently walked into gay.com and saw people talking, as they do there in a horrible rediculious manner, and thought...Oh Jesus!! These people must all be destroyed!! But I want real people to interact with. Which is actually not so easy for me. I work and when Im off its later in the evening. And chances are I have to work the next morning. I dont have a car anymore so my only options for transportation are 1. Chancing it and tagging along with a friend, which really doesnt happen too much. Well, to go OUT anyway. And I dont want it to be where Im having them take me somewhere. For it to happen I want them to want to go first and then it develops. 2. The Bus. I could get to the "out" but would have no way back home. Which is important. And if I DID make the bus home I would be there for maybe 30-45 min and then have to go back home. The bus only runs out here til 10:30 I think. Which is inconvenient. And unfortunate. I would really love to socialize. I kinda feel like Im deprived of social activity. I have work and my close friends. They know who they are. But they have their own things going on and work is work. I wish I did drugs. hehe But I dont see that happening. Eh. Anyway, I have been working at obtaining transportation. But things keep hitting me. Like Taxes, I pay to have them *HRBlock* do it *my taxes* because I have a trade in * my old car that I donated*. I was to get close to $2,000 in tax credit. But it ended up not even counting towards anything. So now I owe everyone. Yay for donating to the less fortunate! Anyway, Im just bitter. One for boredom and two because I hate monies. They are horrible horrible things. It will work itself out in the end Im sure. But in the meantime, its frustrating as hell and I just want to be in a coma as it would be more exciting. Blah. Also, in the terms of money. The record companies have decided to conspire against me at this time of weakness by releasing a bunch of albums by people who I really enjoy all in the same time frame. hehe 1. Tori Amos 2. Fisher 3. Sneaker Pimps 4. Tracy Bonham and I think there are others. I cant think of them at the moment though. Oh well. Its time for sleep anyway. Goodnight from Riley. Current Mood: bored Current Music: "Song of the Sea" - Elisa (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
8:37 am	Josiah is awe inspiring fantastic. thank you (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
6:45 am	Good Morning Porn Face!! Amazing Creatures I found just this morning.... - boyfordomtops: submissive cum hole bb bottom bitch seeks to relocate to DOM TOTAL TOP BREEDER[s]. take me now please. use me as cum dump/urinal. groups/forced fuckings a + [currently in seattle] ( he sounds DREAMY!) - cuteuwboi: i like gay porn - Kenny-Caphill: I'M HERE TO KILL YOU - JockInErie: i love gay sex - inter2002: Hi, I am a nice, honest, caring, tender, passionate, compassionate 53 yr old male looking to make friends and possibly more if the chemistry works, with another nice, caring guy between the ages of 18. (and thats really where it ended.) - Dude4U2Fuck: Looking for a hung top to walk in, find me ass up, mount and breed my hole no strings no chit chat gl 28yo masc clean cut horny bottom iso top NW/Downtown - sunshinesbright2005: maybe i need to buy a condo in hell, cause my life seems to take me there frequently. (I wonder what property prices are like there...jesus loves you.) - jonnyjason: 20m West LA Bored of my ass! Prvt OK :oP (I think he means bored OFF his ass. But its more fantastic this way.) - ocbchmuscle: NO FACE PIC=NO CHAT I prob wont find a soulmate here but I cant stop looking/hoping. Lookn 4 educated, focused HOT HUNG yng vers/TOP white jock (it's so great hes not too specific on what his soulmate will be. Is there an order form I can pick up at the post office or something?) - AZRobinB: mailto:azrobinb@cox.net West Central Phx. Just Because I Say Hello.. Doesn't mean I want to Sleep with you!! or Do I? ( its good to know the gay's have their standards... *dies* ) - trickynickel: 7th st and missouri //home alone and looking now/ cum join me 4 a drink//pvt kewl ( anyone who spells it CUM instead of COME should be shot directly in the face. And that also goes for people who call themselves stud and use the term BOI) - canihelpyou: Older 4 Younger ----- like them smooth and soft (in other words...Child Molester) - bringitonXXX: back from the gym, suk u off b4 work?... (Amazing!) - fillupthisass: ripped muscle bottom for HUNG TOPS. have pic in profile to chat. ( ...where to even begin..?) - cockboi1512: Lookin for hot young ones too hook up. ( another child molester. Plus hes naturally over 35 calling himself Boi *shoots it in the face*) - studboie2000: Top boy.....looking for love, but in the meantime.....! (Another BOI...He's 35....*shoots that one in the face as well*) - CherryPoppinDaddy: Looking for a young smooth Bottom for R/T PVT me ( child molester #3) - NEpdxHornyGuy: Give me Oral ASAP! (..."Or I will DIE!!!") (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 31st, 2005
7:15 pm	True Story A lovely little tale of wonderment by Kristiyn. once apon a time there was this uhm.. little frong named gus. and one day gus was sitting in his pond on a lilly mind his own business when this stupid bitch comes up to him and grabs him and says kiss me you fucker or ill eat your legs. startled by the events taking place and fearful of his legs he kisses the stupid bitch. but it was no ordinary kiss. he unleashed the frog kiss of warty death. the stupid bitch having unknowingly recieved an evil froggy self defense kiss looked at the frong confused. "but you are supposed to have turned into a prince". The frong says oh man you have the wrong pnd. he is 3 ponds over. the stupid bitch drops the frong back on his lilly where he laughs in evil hysterics. goodl uck keeping that frong after my warty goodness has unleashed its force upon your vilely soft human lips!! BWA HAHAHA *mad frog laughter echos through the tall reeds around the pond* ..... *the story continues* as the stupid bitch is walking through the swampy woods in search of the third pong over.. and scratching her lip furiously he become aware of a rustling in the bushes ahead of her. Curious she slowly walks over and tries to peer into them to see what is causing he sound. jus then to her surprise # ninjas in sequined pajamas came charging out of the shrubbery. Halt! shouted the first ninja quickly, only to have his lips keep moving as if he were speakign mroe than one word. You may not pass this way. Said the other ninja with the same quirky mouth movements.he was dressed in a pair of very smart blue sequined jammies. please said the dumb bitch i must get through i have to get to the 3rd pond over to find the frog prince? The bedazzled sleepware clad ijas looked at each other and then at her adn then back at each other and burst out laughing as though what she had said was very very funny. pouting and scratching her ip she waiting for them to compose themselves. you ah sooo stupiiid the third ninja said his mouth moving long after sound had finished escaping. frogs no turn into princes. you ah sooo stuupiiid. again the hysterical ninja laughter. the stupid mocked bitch was growing angry btu found herself distracted by what felt like several small bumps by her top lips. ninja two took notice of her ever growing skin growths and pointed as if in fear... oooohhh you have warty frog curse. the 3 ninjas sreamed like little girls and fled into the shrubbery from whence they had sprung. warts! screamed the princess.. but i dont understand this has never happened before. that bastered didnt tell me he has warts!! I knew I should have put balm on first she sighed. ill kill him she finally decided after a moment of silent thought. yes kill him and eat him. angrily she turned and stomped back to the pond where the frong had placed his kissy curse on her. he peered carefully through the reeds and saw the frong lazing on his lilly. She grabbed him by the legs scaring the piss out of him literally (which grossed out the stupid bitch). I will kill you and eat you for this warty monstrosity you haev left on my face you good for nothing amphibian. she swung him around by his legs adn though he were a fox tail and smashed him to gooey frog bits on the nearest tree. damn.. not enough left to eat she said. im just geting screwed over left and right. just then her attention ws turned down to her feet and the sound of a line of marching soldier ants. *march march march * the ants came to the froggy bits and the call for halt was isued *company halt* Face left! all the ants turned to look at the mass of frogy what have you. soldiers collect! the ants came around and began collecting the frong bits and began marchingon their way again. *dumb bitch looks directly into camera* mother nature is an effecient machine. the circle of life. Knowledge is power!! *flashed peace symbol and makes goofy face like an girl in an anime* im so ugly now the princess wailed and crys all the way back home where in a fit of desperation she climbs the tallest tower and flings herself off. *march march march* -the end Q: I heard that ninjas are always cruel or mean. What's their problem? A: Whoever told you that is a total liar. Just like other mammals, ninjas can be mean OR totally awesome. Q: What do ninjas do when they're not cutting off heads or flipping out? A: Most of their free time is spent flying, but sometime they stab. (Ask Mark if you don't believe me.) (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
10:02 am	Today, I feel sleepy! I want to just remain in a coma. Recharge. Work is going well actually. Everyone is extemely nice, and fun. Im so relieved that there isnt some horrible monster cuntessa like at the last job. That was a little much. It was like working with a walking talking bleeding yeast infection every day. So the work thing is going ok so far. Luckily the computer system they use is the same one I used to work with at the other hospital. But this place uses it more often than the other place. My head keeps hurting when I wake up. I feel ill, like morning illness. Strange. Joey and I are going to watch Season 3 of "Curb Your Enthusiasm" Im very looking forward to it. Its a funny crazy madness. And on Sat Mark might come up. So it will be a full weekend. I was asked yesterday by a girl at work if I wanted to go with her to this singles party thing. I just said I didnt think it would be my sort of thing. She probabally figures that I am still dating Christine. BWA HA HA HA!!! Its so funny how far people will go before you actually say something to correct them. Right now I just will see how far this actually goes. * wonderment* I am almost to the end of the Paper Mario. I kinda just want another Mario game to come out already. One thats better and not so big on Japanese speaking as if they are American. I bought it and thats the only reason why Im playing it now. I also picked up the game "Alice" for the computer. Thats prety good. But I dont like using the keyboard controls. Blah :) The majority of my music , and then some , is back inside the play lists I had on my computer after mysteriously being wiped out. I wasnt too entirely happy but I guess at times Its given me something to do. So there ya go :) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
9:15 pm	Thank goodness its over. The family madness. I kept myself a steady stream of intoxication throughout christmas. Family is hard to deal with enough in doses but when they are all there its like an onslaught of familytime nightmare. Im sure they mean well but I dont know why I just cant handle. Its anyones guess. First off I had to get up early so I can take public transit all the way to Greshem to my grandmothers house....I Go? hehe Anyway, The whole thing took close to two hours and I missed my stop because I didnt know where I was going and of course when I DID get there I had to wait because my ride was late and it was, naturally, raining. And I was cold :P That stay was ok. But then it was on to Salem to my other grandparents. Now, I needed to start the drink upon arriving. Because I knew within the first 10-15 minutes I would be getting the 3 topic questions...."Job, Money, School". And never are those things not asked about. And always when answered they try to give any bit of advice as to how to better myself. Last year they brought up school and how I really should go. So I just looked at them and said..."Ya know, if you want to fund that then I would be ok going. Otherwise it really needs not to be questioned". They sort of stopped but this year it was asked again. Eh, they are old and prolly dont remember. So I continued to drink and it bugged me less. In addition to all the falseness going around. Its like they are being a certain way so you notice it and make mention then it all comes out. But why not just let it out firstly? Anyway, finally got home around 9 or so. Played a couple new games I got then eventually passed out after talking to Mark. I had an ok day otherwise. Mark deffinately put an up side to it. :) And today I slept in then ended up playing more games then eventually cleaned alot. Laundry and all that. mark came over later on and we watched Anacondas. Thats the second one. It was ok for what it was. The snakes didnt look very real but the monkey was cute. :) And here it is now. Im relaxed and a little bored. But good. I also just took some Diphenhydramine so I feel all tingly and high. Oh, good things that I love!....... A new CD is out by a group called "I_AM_X" and the cd is called "Kiss and Swallow". They do NOT have it in the mall :( So I bought it offline. $14 and the whole thing is fantastic. I love it so many. The singer guy is the most current front person from "Sneaker Pimps". Its still trip hop and electronica mixxed. I also got the Kelli Ali single of "Hot Lips" and it had one song on it thats ok. Nothing great. Well, the lyrics arent that great but the music is kinda catchy. And I just downloaded the new Kylie song hehe And the new Tori Amos album is coming out soon so Im looking forward to that. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
9:08 pm	Endless numbers and fascination = Too much free time It's been forever. Or something. Too much has been going on. For those who know...Congrats. To those who don't....sorry. I don't feel like going through it all again. But I guess I can share a few things. Been spending more time with Mark. And been loving every bit of it. Its kinda scary. I havent had the best of luck in relationships. Part of me wants to stop because its scary and the other part just wants to go with it. I think Im going to go with the latter one. :) He got me christmas gifts. Which I didnt expect. I dont really usually get those from "signifigant others". And he got me something I really wanted. One of those George Foreman grills. I love that thing like it was a second penis.....a bigger one with video games inside it. hehe And he made me a blanket that is the most comfortable ever. I start a new job on the 5th of January. Which is right across the street. Good for closeness. But I really dont want to do that job anymore. I will be applying for a job at OHSU soon. Not sure which one but it sounds like a good idea. hehe I just found out that a new CD is being released that Im anxiously waiting to get to my house. Its a cd called "Kiss and Swallow" by a new group "I_AM_X" Who is basically the sneaker Pimps front man. Kinda sucks though. The CD sounds really really good! Fantastic sound to it and great lyrics. And his voice is nice although Im still mad about them throwing out Kelli Ali. She was the voice of sneaker pimps I thought. But he was an ok repalcement. He at least has a good understanding as to how to make the sound his plaything. The CD is out and headed my way. But I have a feeling it wont be here until after christmas :( I really wanted it before hand. But I will have to deal I guess with the two songs I DO have. *sadness* Well, Im going now. I will write more later I think. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 25th, 2004
10:24 pm	Holiday's are horrible. But I have a good deal of day's off from work this week. Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun, and <om. I was getting burnt out of that place. I was talking to some guy online today about wrking and Id love to just concentrate about constant money in-flow. And actually have it just come in. He said I needed to buy him shoes. I honestly DONT see the logic in any of that. Guess its some sort of "gay" thing. maybe because he was younger that he felt I needed to buy him shit. But Im not having sex with *it* so I dont see any need for compensation ;) Even then would I really need that much? Sex really has gone down in value. Its not like its a BMW or something. I like my new place in Beaverton. But I dont have internet yet. Why I havent updated in a while. Actually, its kind of nice. I thought I would miss it a little. But I guess I dont. I mean i DID try to get it. But the guy was obviously handicapt in some manner. I made the appointment one week in advance. It wasnt a difficult order at all. Plus it was the first one of the day. But the guy never showed up. I mean it usually wouldnt have bugged me as much. But lately my free time is very limited. And that day I had 3 million things to do. And I expected that to take no more than 45 min. i waited an hour before I called and no one picked up so I naturally left a nasty horrible message threatening his life, born / unborn children, and swore it on the baby jesus......or more like said I had better things to do than wait and I made the appointment well in advance so I didnt see what the problem was and said I was to call his supervisor if he did not contact me within the hour. He did not...but I didnt call anyone else about it. He called back that night to say he " just say the memo about the appointment" and felt back and wanted to rescheduel. I called back the next day but no answer, just hung up and thats where it remains. I was too annoyed to deal with it properly. Today I left it for Eugene to visit family for the time being. Holidays are ever so horrible hehe I always feel so emotionally drained by the end of it. By the time this is all done I will have a little bit of time left to relax. Then back to the M-S. This week working has been horrible. I guess everyone has been stressed about us upgrading the hospital. it IS a stressing situation. But there is a fine line between being totally stressed and just being dramatic. And its more like the latter bit of it. If your going to really be a giant cunt in the workplace to your co-workers you better be sure its for good reason and not that you are just being a giant 35 y/o baby. *goes to get the giant coat hangers* bwa ha ha!!!! ;) I do not like being told what to do by someone who has no idea what they are telling me in the first place. And when they are having personality issues it can create an ordeal because I like to straighten out what needs to be corrected if its approached. Espically if Im being told Im doing something incorrectly when I know for a fact Im not and they are just doing it because they are "having a bad day". Everyone has bad days and to think you are any different than anyone else in that respect is horribly selfish. Not to say I was Ill all week two weeks ago. I made mention to it twice because I didnt want people to take issue to me maybe not being at the top of my game. But I worked anyway because I didnt want them to be short handed. I felt like I was walking through HELL, of course. But no one really seemed to care. And then just a few days ago this one Im having the most issue with kept saying how she wasnt feeling well and obviously couldnt handle any bit of stress that was going around. Not even the smallest bit. Instead she treated everyone else like crap. I was just waiting for her to say...Sorry, Im ill....I would have said...I will keep that in mind next time I feel like being a giant bitch. "Sorry I just shot you in the face...Im not feeling very well....". Anyway. We had a giant dinner today. Which was good. But Im all sleepy now with the turkey. My sister was here. I guess she moved away from home a couple weeks ago, living with her boyfriend. I met him a couple months ago and he seemed like a nice guy. I guess she needed money and felt it nessicary to sell some of my stuff so she could obtain money. She asked me after the fact, naturally. Kind of upset me, actually. But ah well. lah, Im sleepy hehe Talked to some people today that I havent in some time. Been an ok day other than the whole family thing. It went better than expected, which is great. But still cant wait to get back to the norm and all. Fantastic. Hope everyone had a good holiday. Im done for now Current Mood: "....I'm so shleeeepy." Current Music: Mansun - "Getting Your Way" (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
7:39 pm	Today was kinda fun. I was still kinda buzzing from my time with Marc. Plus at work today I got CD's I had on order on Amazon.com-UK. The one I really wanted was the newest and LAST Mansun CD!! :( Its 3 CD's but it makes me sad they are to never return. The second is the Hullabaloo Soundtrack by Muse. Which is a Double CD. One is B-sides throught all of the CD's. The Second is a live show they did in France. I saw them live not more than two weeks ago and I about had a heart attack they were soooooo good!! They put on a FANTASTIC show...Plus all of their music is great anyhow. So I was *gleeming* from that for days after. I love the new Mansun CD. Its different from the others but my fav CD is still "Six". Which I listened to today ;) Thats all I have for now, though. (Comment on this)
7:08 am	So, yesterday was nice. It was my day off and I was just planning on hanging out and doing laundry. Nothing really all that exciting. My friend Marco fond me online who I havent seen for a couple years or so. He was really young when I met him but I wasnt aware at the time. I found out and I kinda freaked out so we didnt talk for a while. But he got a hold of me yesterday and wanted to hang out so I said ok. So we hung out most of the day and it was really nice. Ended up just cuddling and talking. He left around 9pm or so and I finished my laundry. hehe Not sure where its going and all but hes supposed to come up again on Saturday. So I guess we'll see. :) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 26th, 2004
11:13 am	The Hangman's Halo Last night Joey and I went out. I really had wanted to in the start of the week but by last night I was just "eh.." about it. I had a strange feeling about it. I had a good day at work however. So it wasnt that I was in a bad mood. Just an odd one. Plus I was very tired from getting up at 6am :( I really hope I get used to it. Its not TOO bad, but Id rather NOT get up that early. So, we were out and I saw alot of people I knew. Saw Bill and his friend, David from Seattle, the Fancie Mike with some of his friends, and some other people. I did however see Scott. I knew I was going to though. But kinda figured I was being paranoid about it. But, guess not. It really happened. On the way down I kept thinking that Scott was going to be there. But, I was tired. So I figured it was because of that :) He tells me that was the first night hes been out since he and I got into that car accident on the freeway. Seemed a bit out of it, but then again I did as well Im sure being as tired as I was. Joey amde mention that looked like he was on something. Not sure if he was or not but I tried not to think on it too terribly much. Which of course didnt happen. Started to slow down so we head down the street. Saw some hookers, strippers, and homeless people. My night, at this point, was complete :) We decide to take off. And I think by this time it was about 2:30 or something. I dont remember hehe But I went to sleep around 3am or so. Woke up feeling not too bad. A little thirsty, but could be worse :) I need to be feeling good for the Muse concert tonight, which Im very excited for :) Words cannot describe. It will be fantastic. *..... Current Mood: amused Current Music: Muse - Feeling Good (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
6:02 pm	This morning I get into work and theres a massage on the office voicemail from some guy in the night asking us if there was a "Medicinal Catnip". Then said....Oh...But its proll illegal...Mumbled something then hung up. People are amazing. I go out tonight for birthday madness. But if anyone sings to me I will shoot them in the face.....unless its Tori Amos ;) Its her birthday tomorrow as well. But she wont be there :( And neither will Joey :( He said earlier this week that he cant because work makes him not go out. So Im kinda sad about that but also understand. This week was soo long at work. It felt like it was never going to end. Plus we had alot of irritating clients. I never knew so many existed. But apparently they do :) But still no one ever has been more annoying and irritating than Vanessa and Anneliese. Apparently they are becoming the same person. Which is extra horrible. So happy Im not working there anymore. Sounds like they are close to the "Crash and Burn" moment. And everything causing it was all totally avoidable. Ok, I gotta go get ready for Shannon, (4 Comments |Comment on this)